Why I Read

First I feel like I have to say thank you to my reading buddy, my little furball, ok he's not so little but he is fluffy and he loves to sit with me while I read, as long as I read in bed lol.

Now for the point of this post, I read because life is hard, life with a connective tissue disease is hard, living with heart failure is hard, life with CTEPH is hard, being chronically ill in any way is hard. No matter how positive I try to be, or how much of my own advocate I try to be, it's hard.

Life in books is simple, there's a format, you know what you're getting for the most part and I can choose how I want to escape on a day-to-day basis it's fantastic.

Some days I want an epic adventure, to not have the limitations of this body, to be able to soar with dragons or swim with mermaids, other days I want a rom-com with more moments of miscommunication than I have doctor's appointments, and some days I want something that makes me remember it could always be worse, I can find all of these experiences and live vicariously through them in books.

Now I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, I will keep doing what I need to do to keep going, I will deal with being on oxygen, I will deal with not knowing how much sicker I will get, and I will fight with my dying breath and I will be reading while I do it all.

Through books I can pack a lifetime of adventure into a few hours, sweeping romance, fantasy, thrillers, and mysteries, they're all at my fingertips.

So here's wishing all of you well with happiness and health, and all the dreams you have coming true.